there are a few things I really, really wish would materialize pronto: My book, a certain someone from the past, and a sustainable job that aligns with my passion.
(And notwithstanding the rightness or wrongness of those wishes, these have been desires I've worked HARD on, for at least the past 3 years.)
So..... what is one to do in the meantime?
What is one to make of these "in between" phases where we live without having
what “we want”?
Are we to be unhappy, until their blessed arrival?
(cause that sounds horrid.)
So, the idea for this blog came to me yesterday while I was in choir practice. Here I am, 3 hours in, voice getting hoarse, and tolerance for humans getting low.
When it occurred to me to ask myself: "what the hell I doing here"?
I'm not advancing any sort of "goal"; I'm not getting "paid", and it's my last free day before re-entering the routine of desk life....
I'm almost embarrassed to divulge how utilitarian my thought process has become; but how do you ascertain how to fill the gaps between where you are and where you want to be?
I'm imagining that for many of us these "in between" times are when we zone out on social media, watch tv, or submerge in any other activity that takes the edge away from rational and results oriented thinking.
And it's true, for those 3 hours, not once did I think about book editing or being on Ellen.
That future oriented part of me was on snooze, and my participation in the present moment defined how I was being successful.
I guess what I'm trying to say is that, we have the choice to make "unproductive" time actually still be extremely valuable.
It's kind of like going out to a nice restaurant, just for the food.
What about the time spent waiting for the food? Would the outing still be worthwhile if that time was a drag?
Try interrupting your "waiting" mode this week by finding something in your immediate environment that could give you some pleasure or meaning. How does that effect your sense of "progress"?
And between us chickens: writing for you is one of my favorite "in between" parts of my life.